For most New Years Eve is about looking back...remembering what was in the year past...good, bad, exciting, and toilsome. For whatever reason, I can't look back. It's not that I don't count my adventures in the year before to be valuable...but my heart does not lie in the previous year. My heart lies ahead, in the journey before me. Looking back, for me, occurs in a brief second before I move on. Some attribute this to a gypsy heart or an impatient mind...I attribute this to hope. No matter how realistic or cynical I become in my years I still believe in the ability to dream, to hope.
Like every hopeful person I have things I want to accomplish in the new year. Some time ago I quit making resolutions and changed my language to "goals" for the new year....inside I know it's the same thing, but the language is different and for whatever reason it's different. The word goal implies a working process, something not yet obtained. Resolution imply something that is already changed. No matter how much hope I have in the new year, I know I am not that resolute.
A new year before me offers a fresh start, a new beginning, a chapter in my life that is unwritten....moments to discover, emotions to feel, problems to solve, a new adventure waiting.....I love the feeling of new.
My goals for the new adventure that awaits me:
1. To enjoy the moments that I am in, in the present. (this tends to be difficult for us dreamers and future dwellers)
2. To laugh more (this, in part, requires my friends to be more funny) ;)
3. To take it step by step (again, something difficult for me...I tend to excel in taking it all on at once)
4. To listen for God's voice in my everyday (His voice tends to be quiet and easily missed. I long to hear it in my everyday experiences, daily to-do's)
5. To take time for myself...preferably at the gym (yes, this includes the ever so popular "lose weight"...but this is more than that. I tend to work non-stop and never take a break...I need to break more)
6. Start a dream journal (not a journal filled with my night-time dreams, but the dreams in my soul that keep me awake at night....I need to write these downs, maybe I will do that here...maybe not)
7. Dream irresponsibly. (Because not dreaming seems more irresponsible)
8. Dance, sing, and smile...just because I can.
9. Look for true beauty in the moment
10. Live the life I dream about...be the person I admire....love the way God does (I will spend the rest of my life trying to achieve this one)
So here's to 2011! Full steam ahead.
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